too much english, and this is what we have

Bla bla bla, and here we go again, thinking the same old things, once again. When is gonna stop? (and that's when my head says NEVER -or FUCK YOU ALL, dont know why-).
Is it worth it? Is ALL of this worth it?
I would rather to smile all day long BUT THATS NOT STH I CAN CHANGE, ITS NOT A CHOICE, ITS NOT ALWAYS AN OPTION; I know sometimes I ask you too much, I expect too much, but I just wanna receive a little bit of what I give (just to be clear: I give what I WANT to give, nothing more, nothing less.)